things in my head and i don't know why they're in englisch

It's hard for me to understand how things are going. Everything circles around anything. And the end is always nearer than you thought. I can't handle the fact that i'm not the only one how things such strange and awful things. It always shocks me. I'm not able to trust peoples words. Im always haunted by the idea that everyone is just lying to me. And it's so hard for me to get this all into my head, because really everyone has these struggles and desires into their heads and everyone must learn how to be happy with themselves. And you really have to know that you aren't the only person in the world with this things inside of your head. you aren't the only one who's hurting! Really everyone around you's hurt too, but in our society it's the best for you to keep quiet about your problems, otherwise you'll get hurt several times. Human nature is awkward and to me it seems like everyone's always starving for the approval from others. Everyone's an insecure mess, but nobody's showing it.