There are things no one understands. Things i can't even explain to myself. I once red the sentence depression is like drowning and everyone around you is still breathing. And i drowned in it cause this was actually how i felt the whole time before. I felt so lost in the large sea called life. Everyone around me knew where to swim, except me. I just wasn't good enough for this swimming. I was too less of anything, everyone else had. And so i drowned. I sank down to the deep bottom of the sea. And there i'm still lying and waiting for some beautiful boy to safe me from my old ways and teach me how to swim.